I guess I'm finally awake. I really can't feel anything. Up AT LEAST four times in the night with a daughter's fever, clogged nose & nightmares. Funny thing...she's now in dad's recliner - watching television, playing a game on a computer with TV remote & hot tea by her side...totally content and seemingly rested. (Mom is the one that's a mess.) That's ok. In fact, I'm lovin' it. That's what motherhood is all about and I'm receiving the blessings of being able to be home with my beautiful daughter. (May I interject here a big THANK YOU to my wonderful hubby, Michael, who's hard at work making ends meet so that I can have this desire of my heart!!!)
Motherhood - the selfless act of loving a little resemblence of yourself (sometimes the good, the bad and yes...even the ugly). Signing up for sleepless nights, dusty shelves & dirty floors, worries when sickness comes, dishes always in the sink, clothing with stains (of milk, food, blood & vomit...to name a few), and TV dinners on the fly unless Papa Bear is cooking (THANKS honey/hubby - you're the BEST cook on the PLANET). I make the best fish stick TV dinner, by the way...just ask anyone in our church.
God programmed the female to have all the right wires to be the nurturing partner and perfect mother to offspring. Sometimes in the midst of the journey and the trenches of the daily grind...I forget that. I let it slip from my mind that God entrusted Justin, Jordan, Brady, Jennifer, Ian, Paige, Nico along with Jeffrey & Natolie into my care and holds me accountable for their well being while IN my care. (Ouch) I also know He is a Loving, Soverign God that knows my imperfections and will assist me in this monumental task if I'll just humble myself and ask Him. (That can be the easy part if I'll just remember to.)
He has answers to ALL of life's questions - all I need to do is spend T-I-M-E with Him and listen. So I offer a prayer up for myself (aka: Mom) and any others out there that are in need today...
Father, Thank You for Who You are (the Great I AM). Thank You that You have ALL the answers and all that is needed of me is to come to You, sit with You, sing my Praises to You, and ask for help. Forgive me when I forget. Please help me today because I am tired and may lash out at those I hold dearest to my heart.
I love You. -Amen-
YET THOSE WHO WAIT FOR THE LORD WILL GAIN NEW STRENGTH; THEY WILL MOUNT UP WITH WINGS LIKE EAGLES, THEY WILL RUN AND NOT GET TIRED, THEY WILL WALK AND NOT BECOME WEARY. (Isaiah 40:31)
keep the faith, sweet friend
~love, karen
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Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Time
Oh...my...gracious! Where DID the time go?
I just blinked and it's been a month since my last post here!!! Forgive me, dear cyber-friends.
I guess I've been busy...baking/decorating cookies, shopping & shipping Christmas presents to family, setting up & taking down decorations, trips to Garden City to tend to a STUBBORN dental piece that JUST WON'T STAY GLUED DOWN!!!!
Anyway, I think it's about time to put up a new post...so here it comes. (right after I feed my daughter some lunch...grilled cheese & soup. Nothing quite like it on a cold, Kansas day!)
My devotional this morning was about becoming more Christ-like. Darn...just when I was wanting to throw in the towel. Life is hard! But God is good! And HE knows everything that's going on. I just have to remember that He's in complete control. There's nothing (let me say it with emphasis...NOTHING) that goes on that He doesn't already know. And if I can just keep my head about me...and keep my faith & trust STRONG in HIM...then NOTHING can harm me! I will be victorious IN HIM. He will go before me & fight for me. Period.
In the meantime it's my job to surrender all (everything I am...everything I have) to His Will. That can be pretty dang hard sometimes. Especially knowing satan's pretty smart & knows my weaknesses...my areas where I'm most vulnerable. I MUST ALWAYS REMEMBER WHO I BELONG TO, SWEET DAUGHTER of THE GOD of the UNIVERSE!!!!
My counseling this past week was SO helpful. I wrote down everything I could think of that I've been told that I am (some of the many LIES that I've bought into in my lifetime). These 'LIES' were then taped to a big, red heart pillow that was resting on my lap (representing my heart). My counselor helped me walk through that list: item-by-item...lie-by-lie. And replaced each one with TRUTH from THE WORD of GOD! I ripped up the list of lies (into tiny shreds I might add)...which felt pretty good...freeing. As a matter of fact - I highly recommend anyone reading this post to try it. You'll feel a heavy burden lifted...and a new freedom that's exhilirating!
My prescription from my counselor: Read through my list of TRUTHS every day for the next two weeks. ok...doc...here I go...
COME TO ME ALL WHO ARE WEARY AND HEAVY-LADEN, AND I WILL GIVE YOU REST. (Matt 11:28)
HE GIVES STRENGTH TO THE WEARY AND TO HIM WHO LACKS MIGHT HE INCREASES POWER. (Isaiah 40:29)
Thought this post needed two scripture references.
keep the faith, sweet friend
~love, karen
I just blinked and it's been a month since my last post here!!! Forgive me, dear cyber-friends.
I guess I've been busy...baking/decorating cookies, shopping & shipping Christmas presents to family, setting up & taking down decorations, trips to Garden City to tend to a STUBBORN dental piece that JUST WON'T STAY GLUED DOWN!!!!
Anyway, I think it's about time to put up a new post...so here it comes. (right after I feed my daughter some lunch...grilled cheese & soup. Nothing quite like it on a cold, Kansas day!)
My devotional this morning was about becoming more Christ-like. Darn...just when I was wanting to throw in the towel. Life is hard! But God is good! And HE knows everything that's going on. I just have to remember that He's in complete control. There's nothing (let me say it with emphasis...NOTHING) that goes on that He doesn't already know. And if I can just keep my head about me...and keep my faith & trust STRONG in HIM...then NOTHING can harm me! I will be victorious IN HIM. He will go before me & fight for me. Period.
In the meantime it's my job to surrender all (everything I am...everything I have) to His Will. That can be pretty dang hard sometimes. Especially knowing satan's pretty smart & knows my weaknesses...my areas where I'm most vulnerable. I MUST ALWAYS REMEMBER WHO I BELONG TO, SWEET DAUGHTER of THE GOD of the UNIVERSE!!!!
My counseling this past week was SO helpful. I wrote down everything I could think of that I've been told that I am (some of the many LIES that I've bought into in my lifetime). These 'LIES' were then taped to a big, red heart pillow that was resting on my lap (representing my heart). My counselor helped me walk through that list: item-by-item...lie-by-lie. And replaced each one with TRUTH from THE WORD of GOD! I ripped up the list of lies (into tiny shreds I might add)...which felt pretty good...freeing. As a matter of fact - I highly recommend anyone reading this post to try it. You'll feel a heavy burden lifted...and a new freedom that's exhilirating!
My prescription from my counselor: Read through my list of TRUTHS every day for the next two weeks. ok...doc...here I go...
COME TO ME ALL WHO ARE WEARY AND HEAVY-LADEN, AND I WILL GIVE YOU REST. (Matt 11:28)
HE GIVES STRENGTH TO THE WEARY AND TO HIM WHO LACKS MIGHT HE INCREASES POWER. (Isaiah 40:29)
Thought this post needed two scripture references.
keep the faith, sweet friend
~love, karen
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Tired...
Goodness, gracious! Has it been this long since my last 'confession' (aka: blog)?? Guess life has been SO busy since. Let me think...hmmm...school started...girl scouts is starting...Crusader Kid club (after-school program at our church)...cookie baking & decorating...hubby preparing for Kenya mission trip (in Oct)...walking 6 mornings a week/3 miles each day with good girl-friends...and of course, work. Yep, I'm busy.
Ok, now about that title "Tired..." I'm finding that if I slow down for even just a minute - I'm more tired than if I'd not slowed at all. Why do you suppose that is? Maybe I'm on that circular wheel, like the hamster we used to have...round & round...never ceasing...until the very breath is choked out and I lay motionless on the cage floor. (Yikes!)
But all these are 'good, worthwhile' things in my life! How do I decipher which ones to weed out & which to keep? I think I know the answer - take it to 'the Man Upstairs.'
As much as I have been LOVING the cookie baking/decorating - I keep asking/praying - O God, is this of me? Or is this of You? Help me to know. I want nothing that isn't glorifying You. Then I guess I need to ask myself the question...is it adding to or taking away from my family? Ask my husband and the answer has been different on any given day. While I know in my heart he is trying to be supportive ~ I also see with my eyes that sometimes he feels neglected, that my emphasis (and time) is being spent in the kitchen and not with him. (Ouch) So I take my concerns (you guessed it)...back to my Father...because "HE Knows Best." (And I try to carve out a little time for my wonderful husband...like when I stopped baking to rub his tired, hurting feet with some really good eucalyptus oil we have).
Where I've found peace is knowing He is in complete control of me (and my surroundings)...and His timing is Perfect. He loves me beyond understanding and will guide my very steps ~ all I have to do is listen to His Voice (be still and know...), do what He says do (be obedient to ONLY Him), and TRUST.
"Thank you, Abba...Father...Daddy"
Now all I need is my pillow, blanket & a good 'chick-flick'...
"COME TO ME, ALL YOU WHO ARE WEARY AND BURDENED, AND I WILL GIVE YOU REST. (Matthew 11:28)
keep the faith, dear friend.
~love, karen
Ok, now about that title "Tired..." I'm finding that if I slow down for even just a minute - I'm more tired than if I'd not slowed at all. Why do you suppose that is? Maybe I'm on that circular wheel, like the hamster we used to have...round & round...never ceasing...until the very breath is choked out and I lay motionless on the cage floor. (Yikes!)
But all these are 'good, worthwhile' things in my life! How do I decipher which ones to weed out & which to keep? I think I know the answer - take it to 'the Man Upstairs.'
As much as I have been LOVING the cookie baking/decorating - I keep asking/praying - O God, is this of me? Or is this of You? Help me to know. I want nothing that isn't glorifying You. Then I guess I need to ask myself the question...is it adding to or taking away from my family? Ask my husband and the answer has been different on any given day. While I know in my heart he is trying to be supportive ~ I also see with my eyes that sometimes he feels neglected, that my emphasis (and time) is being spent in the kitchen and not with him. (Ouch) So I take my concerns (you guessed it)...back to my Father...because "HE Knows Best." (And I try to carve out a little time for my wonderful husband...like when I stopped baking to rub his tired, hurting feet with some really good eucalyptus oil we have).
Where I've found peace is knowing He is in complete control of me (and my surroundings)...and His timing is Perfect. He loves me beyond understanding and will guide my very steps ~ all I have to do is listen to His Voice (be still and know...), do what He says do (be obedient to ONLY Him), and TRUST.
"Thank you, Abba...Father...Daddy"
Now all I need is my pillow, blanket & a good 'chick-flick'...
"COME TO ME, ALL YOU WHO ARE WEARY AND BURDENED, AND I WILL GIVE YOU REST. (Matthew 11:28)
keep the faith, dear friend.
~love, karen
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